Starting Day 2

6:49. I was supposed to pack my own lunch, my moms always on me about how she does it for me at me age. I planned on starting today. I even got up early to do so. It was already filled. She said she 'packed lightly'. It has a V8, four baby belles, a three cheese manicotti tv dinner and 3 waffles. That's not light mom. But I love how I was counting calories out loud and she praised me for measuring out every thing. It doesn't seem odd at all that your 'already tiny' daughter, who wears a 0/1/2, who you constantly say must have BDD, was counting calories for a teaspoon of sauce? This is how she never found out about my cutting. I'm good at hiding it, but half the time she's too caught up in other things to notice. I've let things slip before. I've left my room crying. I've worn short sleeves and suddenly had 5 hair bands on my wrist. I've done a lot, I thought. But I never got caught. Soon I just controlled it myself. I only cut when I truly need it. Other times I walk, run, listen to music (I have a great taste in music XD). So hiding this, controlling this, will be easier than I thought. Off to school. Eaten nothing yet today. Weight:120.